I miss being thin
Frustrated beyond belief. Angry. Upset. Annoyed. You inconsiderate bastard.
Today I feel insecure, and that makes me unhappy. It reminds me of when I deluded myself into thinking weight loss could fix me up inside. In a weird fucked up way, I wish I didn’t love my body so that I could sit in front of the mirror and pick myself apart.
"Quod me Nutrit, me Destruit": If people knew the... →
flyhighfragilebluebirdfly: If people knew the thoughts in my head; the thoughts that keep me up at night; the thoughts that make me want to crawl under a blanket, wither up and die. The thoughts that call me fat, ugly, worthless, and worse of all selfish. If people heard those thoughts they wouldn’t tell me to eat. They… I remember when I felt this way.
How can I be hungry when I’ve already eaten my weight in your hate?
When I look at the world, I’m pessimistic, but when I look at people,...– Carl Rogers
After 21 years of emotional and physical abuse from myself and my parents, I’m finally breaking free. New life, new beginnings, across the country with the love of my life :). I’m weight restored, haven’t purged in weeks, getting discharged this WEDNESDAY, and haven’t had a flashback from the rape in a month. I’m scared and nervous, but above all, I’m...